When we first moved here I remember I would go longer than a week without smiling or laughing. I felt like I had no purpose, no motivation to wake up in the morning. I wondered how I was going to survive this miserable place I was to now call home. I knew it was going to be an adjustment since i'm not the type of individual who is okay or enjoys just staying at home. For the past 6 years I dedicated myself to helping people struggling with addictions, self harm and mental health issues. It's no surprise I choose a career where I felt needed but challenged me mentally on a daily basis. Moving to Davenport has given me the opportunity to work on creating happiness internally instead of depending on external factors such as jobs, friends, shopping. Moving removed all of my distractions that I think a lot of people fill their lives with to try to create happiness. I feel I have changed as a person, I feel more AUTHENTIC. When you look at Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs I feel i'm working out of esteem needs and into self actualization. I feel it's so important to embrace your short comings instead of trying to appear PERFECT. Really who is perfect? I know a lot of people who live their lives in the image of others or work so hard to appear everything about their life, family, home is perfect perfect. My blog will not be one of those because i'm not perfect and I don't have it all together! Yes i'm talented at cooking and can create wonderful dishes, but I can't keep a clean house to save my life! I can now say that I like living in Davenport....not love... like.... Before we moved Dev and I had a great marriage( I know i'm bias) we were so in love and so dedicated to each other. Living here has made us closer then ever imagined and I love it! I'm so proud of Devon he works so hard at school, his dedication and drive is admirable. Dev is in the top two in all his classes but shh I never told you! He doesn't get the recognition or praise he deserves by some people in his life, but I make sure I try to tell him often as possible how proud I am of him following his dreams and going against the grain. I enjoy spending so much time with the love of my life and my best friend, we take Maui for a walk everyday, make delicious dinners together and just try to help each other out as much a possible. I wake up most days happy and embrace each day for what it may bring, and am great-full for Dev, my family and the blessings that my faith brings me.
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